Learning~

18/10/09
Sunday
12.18pm

It has been a while after my last post in the beginning of the year. It is indeed incredible that I am graduating by the end of this year and there's got heaps of stuffs to think about before moving on to the next stage (well, i've no idea where is my next stage and wher will I be ended up yet!).

Always, posting to my blog is an ideal way to release or express my feelings towards anything as I do not expect anyone will read it or might not know the existence of this blog..hahaha!! Life hasn't been going as smooth as what I expected, but this is life, we'll have to cope with it and live with it..hahaha!! Sounds sad huh?! I've learned lots of stuffs in my uni life, especially in my last year. Everything has changed totally from the way that I always think it should be like; I suddenly realise that my belief is not true.

People around aren't all as naive as me, as nice as what we all see from the appearance! This is life, i aasume?! hahahaha!!! Well, I've gotta remember dad's philosophy: Do think about the good side of one person but not the bad side! Hahaha, I am still trying. There is no one being perfect in this world, people live with their flaws! I know it is not possible to change people's thinking or their way of working, believing and behaving, instead, I should be the one to change so as to make sure that I could still be able to survive in the society, agree?

Gap between us ..

19 January 2009
Monday

Only until now that i realize we have gap in between us! Time that we spend to talk to each other is not as much, not maintain, but decreasing! Honestly, i am a bit disappointed! But, cant blame, people might have stuffs to do, and also the line is not as good!!

Suddenly, dont know why would i have a feeling that I shouldn't fall into a relationship! It makes me become demanding and overreacting on certain matter! I am not suppose to be like this!
Only now i recond the fact that relatipnship changes everything. Once you get into a relationship, everything changes dramatically without your realisation.

I cant make sure that u are always there for me, coz u might need ur own time or stuffs to do..and i do underdtand that sometimes, due to the stupid connection, we can hardly talk to each other..BUT, i am sorry that i cant take it! Im pissed bcoz of this ...u know..like we do not get the chance to talk to each other properly for dayS...I just hate it so much!!! But i know that's not ur fault and u cant help.....I just cant calm myself down!

30 November 2008

30/11/08
Sunday

Holidays is not as fun as what I expected before! Friends all left and went home happily! I should have gone home early too!!! Gonna stay here for another month b4 going home..what a pity!

Have been a leech for sometimes, and after he left, i feel very uncomfortable.. shouldn't be a leech at first!!! or i shall say that i should not get together with him? hahaha, definitely not!!!

Turning point

13 September 2008
Saturday
5.30pm

Finally, i have told him everything that I've kept to myself for ages. Everything has changed so drastically, and I still can't accept it, and keep asking myself if that was true!!! Whatever that has happened last night, was that real or just my imagination??

He unloaded the luggage back home??!!!!!!!!! and i have a feeling that I am the one who break them up!!

Life it is...

25 August 2008
Monday
11.11pm

I had food microbiology lecture and practical for the whole day, and what we were doing was all about counting bacteria, analyzing them, justifying them and lots of other interesting stuffs too...Ou, I just realized that i have a slight interest in microbiology, i should have applied for microbiology at first, shouldn't I? But it's too late ..hahaha!!

Something's haunting me recently..Something about friendship...Oh my gosh,I thought I have already "immuned" to it, but reality has proven to me that I am not..I cant let go of that matter, still! The feeling is just killing me, I just can't express or say it out because i don't want something to change again ...and what the matter most is that I have been suppressing it for long long time and can u imagine how horrible is!! I can imagine what will the friendship be in the future, like next year, maybe! going to lose a friend again, gaining 1 acquaintance...wouldn't I?

7.8.2008

7.8.08
Thursday
9.40pm


This photo might not look good, but this is the only photo which three of us took together


I worked today, from 12pm to 4pm, it was a terrible afternoon, and I made mistakes, it was so horrible! Words cant really explain what i had gone through, but it wasn't good..but I'll improve, try not to repeat the same thing again and, to pay extra attention when doing stuffs, not only when working but also in my studies...

Just had dinner with shao hui, the one who is leaving tomorrow, back to her motherland, Singapore, seeking out for new job! I feel sad...slightly..not as bad as last few weeks when we went back from Melbourne without her! Well, hope to meet her again, maybe end of this year in tawau, and wish her all the best in her future undertaking,..this is what a BUDDY can do for her at this moment!

Leaving...

5 August 2008
Tuesday
9.35pm

We had dinner today with shao hui, shao bing and their lovely mum in Cafe Primo as to celebrate her "graduation". Bing and mum are leaving tomorrow, flying back to Melbourne and shao hui will still be staying here until Friday..Ou, just don't want her to leave..

Well, we have known each other for about a year and a half ,and ..she is my BEST friend in Adelaide besides Kavita...and now she is leaving..goodness, i'm gonna lose one best friend here...u know la, i have limited friends around..so losing one friend, is a a big deal to me..haha!!

Another thing, have u ever felt jealous over something funny or hilarious ? I got jealous bcoz someone has "stolen" my good friend, we aren't close anymore....Ou , i treated her/him as my good friend la, but maybe they don't think that way.....But nevermind la, see how it goes..maybe i need to extend my social circle....